心頭悶

上週六早上不知怎的，整顆心悶了一整早。整個人鬱鬱寡歡，就是高興不起來。依然照常做事，到教會為隔天主日預備樂譜。我拼命地振作自己，理清思緒，這股說不出的煩悶，始終揮之不去。

譯研所試考完後，我也不太想它，依舊專心工作。雖然花腦筋又累人，但常經歷神智慧的帶領與指導，快樂總是飽滿又實在，原因不可能是工作。週六早上收到墨雪的來信，是他每季寄給各地弟兄姐妹，報告教會事工與家庭狀況。讀到以下內容時，一股想回法國的衝動油然而生。

Daniel will be preaching in his church for the first time on Sunday, May 4th. Please pray for him, so he can keep a good balance between his very busy working life and his spiritual life and ministries. Daniel will be joining us in Quebec from July 18 to August 10.

David and Stephanie will be married on May 31st in Rochefort, France. Please pray that everything goes well. Many members of Michel’s family will be present! Please pray with us that the Lord will be present and busy working in hearts on that wonderful occasion! David and Stephanie will then be living in London where David has already gone to work. Please pray for him as he gets used to his new job, as he goes apartment hunting, and as he chooses a good church!

-Philippe will graduate from “The Master’s College” on May 9th. Philippe plans to come to France for a missionary trip from May 15 to June 23 with a group from his school with whom he’s recorded a CD made up primarily of his own compositions. Please pray for the Lord to provide for all the needs of this group for their trip around France, and also as he looks for a job for next year. He wants to continue his studies and get a Master’s in Theology at the Master’s Seminary.

-John will also be going on a missionary trip with the Moody Choir. They will be singing in several eastern countries, in Germany and finally in France. John plans to return to Chicago to work part of this summer before participating in the evangelistic Campaign in Quebec.

-Luc is working hard at his studies. He will be passing his exam in French and Biology in a month and a half. Please pray for his tests! He loves to sing rap, composes his own Christian music, and surprised us with a beautiful song in church!

-Christina has to work hard as well in order to pass into her Junior year. She sings in the Gospel choir and loves to make pastel drawings. -Lois has a full agenda. She regularly follows-up on people for their spiritual growth and teaches a Sunday school class. She’s also busy every day with numerous people who ask for prayer on the website www.sos-priere.org. It’s not surprising that sometimes she’s quite tired!

-Michel has some health problems, especially hypertension which was difficult to control for a while. We are grateful to the Lord that more and more people from the church are taking responsibilities and ministries!

-Finally please pray for salvation in Michel’s family: his father Pierre (85 years), his mother-in-law Vivette, his brother Jean-Luc and his wife Genevieve and their three sons, Thomas, Julien, and Benjamin. A big challenge for 2008!

自從回國後，想回到歐洲與再訪密西根的希望沒停過。實在不想老待在臺灣。因著香榭麗舍上的神蹟與土魯斯神特別的祝福，我對巴黎與土魯斯實在有難以割捨的情感。魏家人又是因著神而認識的，意義更重。但同時我也很清楚，光老想著要再出國而沒實際行動很不切實際。目前該做的是專心工作，恒切禱告，順服神的帶領。神知道我的心，一定會憑祂自己的旨意為孩子成就。

也許週六早上太著重欲望，或太過想念朋友吧！到了晚上就好多了。現在我還是很想念他們，但不會不切實際地老想個沒完。認真生活，踏實做事，好好愛神，堅定相信神，神必要擴張我的境界的！